ok so this sux!!!

I'm sittin at home by myself on a Saturday night ... why you ask ... I really dont know ... but it does indeed suck!!!

I'm really bored but I've been so busy lately ... so I'm thinking some downtime might be the best ...

Yesterday was the fall Princeton meet for UIL ... ya we left the school at 1:00 and went to the meet ... it was SO fun ... well for me ... I didnt have to do ANYTHING ... I juz went ... haha the things I do in UIL went on today but we didnt go ... well I met this guy named Michael ... haha hes my bitch ... and I met this guy named Derek ... hes a cool kid!!! I saw Derek Flowers again ... still lookin mighty fine ... well when Bobbi was done with all her stuff we played the stalking game again ... still fun but not as fun as the first time we did it ... we left the meet and went to go get something to eat ... we wanted Jack - in - the - box really bad so we went there ... they were friggin out of curly fries!!! OMG ... thats like Chilis running out of menus ... haha that was for Bobbi ... well we ate and when we were leaving Dylinn called Jeremy he was like Jeremy ... and this guy turned around and was like what? who said my name? Bobbi goes OMG Jeremy??? How are you??? I havent seen you in forever??? he was like ummm ... she goes dont you remember me??? Its Bobbi!!! Ya know from when we were little kids ... he was like little kids??? Then she was like haha I'm juz kidding this guys name is Jeremy too and we were talkin to him ... it was sooo funny!!! Then we went home ... I didnt get home till like 1 ... then I got up this morning at 8:30 to be in Hulen at 10 to get my hair done ... I LOVE IT!!! I got black back underneath again and the red is still the same ... then I got black and red highlights on top ... I'll put pix up soon!!! After I got my hair done me Lacy and Lesley went to Grapevine Mills and looked at prom dresses ... yup ... didnt find one yet ... but I did find 2 that I liked!!! But I dunno ... still dunno who I'm gonna take ... hmmm!!!

So boys ... I dont like them much ... they're pissing me off!!! Can I please fine one decent guy!!! PLEASE??? Well since were on the topic of boys ... I guesss ... I could tell you my little story!!! I kinda have this LITTLE crush on this guy I met on Wednesday ... his names Jacob ... I met him at church ... hes REALLY cute ... his personality seems good but I'm not sure yet ... I dont really know him still have to find that out!!! Well he came into church late and it was funny cuz everytime someone walked in late we'd like all start clapping and yellin their name and being like wooo hooo good to see you!!! So he walked in and he sat next to me ... in between me and other Jacob who is also really cute ... but I think he has a girlfriend so ... well we were sittin there and he introduced himself to me and I was like hi I'm Elaine and he was like ... prolly not gonna remember that but hey!!! Well we were still sittin there I guess you could say ... and he like grabs my hand and looks at my senior ring then he like juz puts his arm around me ... I was like ... ooook ... but ya know I really wasnt caring much then we got up to worship ... la di da di da ... during church it got cold and he let me wear his jacket ... awww ... but like I still said still seeing about his personality ... I guess we'll juz have to wait this one out ... oh and still about boys ... this was on the entry I wrote and the window closed ... JEREMY'S BACK IN TOWN!!! AHH ... I really dont wanna run into him!!! Long story about how I know he's back but I really dont feel like writing it again!!! So if you need to know I've prolly already told you ... =]

Hmmm ... I cannot wait until schools out ... I'm ready to get out of this house ... not that things arent good here ... I'm juz ready to be on my own!!! That and I CANT FRIGGIN wait to live with my Stephanie and Trey!!! Its gonna be soooooo fun!!! Like you dont even know ... well you might whenever we get the place and you come over!!! I juz wanna live my life how I want to!!!

I need a boy ... I need one!!! Not juz want but I need one ... juz for me ... one that wants me and only me ... who sees me for who I am and doesnt try to change me ... one that will love me and let me know that he does ... one who sometimes juz wants to hold me ... a boy who doesnt want to be with a girl juz for sex ... but to be with a girl cuz he cant think of being without her ... a boy who goes to sleep at night thinking about me hoping that it will lead to dreams about me so when he wakes up in the morning he'll be thinking about me still ... or one who cant sleep cuz he's thinking about me ... a boy who likes to cuddle ... one who loves to play the guitar and loves playing it juz for me ... a boy who will write me songs ... and make me mixed tapes ... a boy who wont see me as juz another stupid girl but the stupid girl that he loves ... a boy who will wrestle with me ... who will make fun of me and then let me hit him as hard as I can ... a boy who will share a hot fudge sundae with me but give me the cherry ... a boy who will call me juz cuz he wants to talk ... a boy who gives me his jacket when I'm cold even if he's cold too ... a boy who reaches for my hand ... one who gives me a special ring tone for when I call ... one who doesnt care what anyone else thinks of me but knows he loves me ... I need a boy ...

So tomorrow I'm going to Cowboys ... gonna be fun!!! I cant wait to dance!!! I'm going with Taryn Justin Spenser prolly Mandi and some other people I dunno who alls goin ... but I cant wait!!!

Well I'll prolly be back with pix and maybe some quotes or lyrics ... whatever I'm feeling ... but I dont know what I'm feeling ... I feeling I need some love ...

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